Wednesday, February 18, 2009

When Life Falls to Pieces...

I have heard it said, "When life falls to pieces make a quilt." So that's what I'm doing. I debated about posting about this. Who needs to hear my woes. But I know a lot of you believe in prayer and I could use that right now. I have a rare auto immune disease called ITP. In lay men's terms my body attacks my platelets. (Those little things that keep you from bleeding and help you stop when you get cut.) It has behaved it's self for the last year but being sick must have made it mad because it has reared it's ugly head again. The average person has between 140-400 thousand platelets. My count is at 68 thousand. Although low I have not entered the danger zone, below 50 thousand. At that point they worry about you just spontaneously starting to bleed. Though I have never had that happen and I have been as low as 11 thousand. Well enough doom and gloom, cause although it can be scary it is rarely life threatening. And I'm making a quilt and that is much more fun. Last time it flared up I made this one. By the time it was done my counts were up and I have enjoyed a year with no bleeding worries. So I have dumped a bunch of scraps into a bin. I didn't want to have to cut squares, that's my least favorite part of quilting.

And I started sewing. I made this block.


And this block. I was just grabbing pieces out of that bin.


And this block. Very mindless but very healing.
In fact I made all these blocks.
Who knows what this quilt will look like. That doesn't matter to me. Just that I am piecefully sewing to find peace and healing in my life.
May you find it in yours too.
Em



30 comments:

  1. em, so sorry to hear that you have to deal with this scary situation. My prayers are with you and hope your numbers rise as you quilt.

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  2. I am hoping that your platelet count zooms up to the normal range quickly as you work on this quilt. Sometimes mindless sewing is the best thing to do for ourselves...

    Take care of yourself!

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  3. Oh I hope your platelet count comes back up in a hurry! I'll be thinking of you!
    Kris

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  4. Em, I am sorry to hear that you are having this problem. It sounds scary to me. But your means of therapy is wonderul. I hope that piecing up a new quilt will do the trick for you. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. I can't wait to see what your therapy will produce.

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  5. I am praying that your platelets go way up quickly! Your scrap quilt is just the right therapy. Keep at it and trust in God and those platelets will be higher then ever in no time!
    Have a Blessed Day,
    Diane

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  6. I am praying for your platelets to improve quickly. Such beautiful quilt squares you are making. God bless you.

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  7. Relaxing while quilting must help! i'll be praying that your counts improve - right away. Love what you've started :)

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  8. I'll keep you in my thoughts, meanwhile be careful with your scissors, pins, needles, rotary cutter...

    (Oh & be careful with any steak/butter/paring knives too.)

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  9. Oh, Em! I am so sorry you have to deal with this. I hope your body heals quickly for you as you quilt. Best wishes and you are in my prayers!

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  10. I will be praying for you every chance I get for God to heal you. May He raise your count back up and keep your body free of sickness. My love and His are with you also!!

    What a great way to relax and get the rest you need...gorgeous blocks. If there is anything that you may need, please let me know.

    I love you, my friend.

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  11. Your quilt blocks are lovely! And I'll be sending good thoughts/prayers your way that your platelet count goes back up to where it should be!

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  12. Mindless sewing is good to do when worries come up! This will be a wild and wonky quilt! They are the best for rough snuggling on the couch! 8-)
    I hope and pray your count goes up very soon...
    Take care...

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  13. Thinking of you and praying for you. The blocks are lovely - be careful with your toys and take care of yourself! :)

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  14. Em, I know a tiny bit about what you are saying.

    I had HELLP syndrome and my platelets got to 15,000. They would put IV's in my arms for trasfusions and I would have blood dripping down my arms from the IV sites.

    I also hemoraged and nearly died, so I do understand.

    I'm sorry you have to go through this, I know you always have that little worry in the back of your mind. =0(

    I love your quilt though, I can't wait to see the finished piece. It reminds me of pioneer quilts where they made the quilts from left over pieces of fabric after they made their clothes etc. It's going to be awesome!

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  15. My thoughts are with you Em...and in a funny sort of way I do know how you feel, I suffer from Lupus (I have far too many anit bodies and they attack themselves) thank goodness I have not had a bad attack for quite a while...your outlook and your way of getting thru this attack is a credit to you....your blocks are fantastic, I take my hat off to you Em...I do hope that you will get thru this very quickly ....keep safe ...

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  16. Love your quilt blocks - very scrappy and improvised. Will be a great quilt.

    So one day at a time following the doctor's orders and soft cuddles from the kids and lots of prayers and encouragement from all of us - we do understand as most of us will have something that we deal with as well - I for one have to avoid the sun as my condition makes me extremely photo sensitive. (I'm talking about sunlight, not pictures lol).

    May the Lord make His face to shine upon you, and give you Peace...

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  17. A beautiful quilt in the works...and my thoughts are with you. Healing, get better soon thoughts.

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  18. I'm so sorry you have to worry about this, that must be awful. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. Hopefully you will get your numbers back up and get this quilt finished in record time!

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  19. oh praying for you right away! and those blocks will look GREAT together!!! want to come borrow my new design wall to play with them? just kidding, I'm so excited to have it I try to work it into every conversation!

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  20. Oh Em, I'm so sorry :( Auto-immune diseases are the pits. I struggled with RA for years, and have been in remission (cured?) for about 10 years. My mom has Sarcoid and an auto-immune blood disease that lowers her red count. I hate the way they sneak up on you. I applaud your positive attitude and I will be praying for you! Oh and I love your blocks :)

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  21. It seems that autoimmune diseases are on the rise! I'm so sorry. I love your blocks and for many of us, quilting is a healing place.

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  22. I will definitely be thinking of you. Your quilt is coming together so well and what a great way to soothe your mind while creating something beautiful in the process.

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  23. Emily I have prayed for God's healing hand to touch you and for His peace to flow through you and out of you to others around you. Your quilt will be beautiful because it will be part of you. blessings, marlene

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  24. Hi Em,
    My thoughts and prayers are going your way and hope that by the time you do a few more squares you will be on the way to better health. Stitching it away is piecefull.
    Blessings and I love the way it is turning out.
    Keep Stitchen'
    Bonnie

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  25. Quilting is wonderful therapy, and I hope it makes you feel better physically and calms you down as well. I love that style block!
    Years ago I read about a study in which women who sewed experienced a healthy drop in their blood pressure. Something good is going on!

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  26. I can relate to your auto immune disease. I have one too. My body has destroyed all the nerves in my back and legs. I can't walk anymore. The best treatment is sewing for me also. I find it relaxing. Your blocks are great. It is good to have such an outlet. It's good therapy. Sending good thoughts your way.

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  27. em,
    i don't think my last comment posted so i'll try again. just know you are in my prayers. i'm glad you can find healing with your fabrics and this quilt. take care of yourself.

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  28. I love these healing blocks. I'm right by your side.

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  29. (((EM)))) I hope you get those counts up and I will be remembering you in my prayers. Quilting is good for what ails ya, and prayer is too!

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  30. Hia Em I hope you will improve soon. It sounds like your body was down with something and less able to keep control of your platelets. Ecinacea can help boost your immune system. I really hope you get better. In the meantime, your blocks look good together. I have the worst time trying to co ordinate fabrics.

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